I am lost, what religion am I?

I have always considered myself a Christian as I believe in God and Jesus. I got serious in the religion about a year ago and I dropped out due to wanting to find my way because I got tired of how the rules are run. Over time I became detached, I started to enjoy it a lot more and my life is actually better in my own opinion since I am in control of it rather than some man in the sky. Now, I laugh and mock other Christians that still worship the way they do. I feel like I would want to slaughter them if I can't get them to do my own things. I pretty much feel sadistic out of what comes out of my head. I don't want to worship the devil or become Atheist, where would I fit it at then?